Saturday, May 11, 2013

Dawn is Breaking.

Can you hear the wind howling in the night? I haven't heard it in a while.

Can you feel your pulse quicken maddeningly, stop for a second, and then slow down to nothing? I haven't been that tense in weeks.

Can you see the lights go brighter and brighter till they consume your head in pain? I never want to, again.

Can you smell defeat from even a mile away? I never will.

I can feel the release in my mind. I can feel that weight lifting off my shoulders. I can see the sunlight streaming through my window. I can taste the sweetness from that calming water. I can hear the music pouring out of my heart.

Life, has it ever been so good? Or, was this an exceptionally long slumber that I've just woken from.

Friday, May 10, 2013

What Matters

Ask me about tens of thousands of people hurting and dying all over the world, I may not care. But you do.

Ask me about governments rising and falling, I may not care. But you do.

Ask me about the humanity that does not seem to exist in me, I may care a bit. Okay, more than a bit. But you definitely, most decidedly, do.

I wonder whether your pressure on me to yield to your ways and yours alone makes you care, I doubt you do. But I care a lot.

I care when it is about you and me. I care when it's about the life I lead. What good can I possibly do with views like mine caring about things that move you? It's easiest and most tangible when it's about my life and you in it.

It's not that I don't care about the right things. I only care when it matters. I assure you, humanity did not skip my generation or bloodline. I'm as human as you are, and will be.

Imagine, a mind like mine, having to care about every unjust crime according to the laws written by man. Would I ever be at peace? Are you at peace? Will you be at peace for when it matters then?

Do you not see, then, you care about the world enough for the two of us, while I care enough about us?

Answers. Here are your answers, let it bring you some peace. For, I can only hope, again, that my peace will someday be restored. At this moment, your happiness is what matters. To me.